I have studied one unit of econs for the test tomorrow. Hopefully that one question wouldn’t be some hard-ass one with ambiguous demands. Screw this, it’s not yet 10pm but I think I need a clear head more than anything else.

Basically, ramble less, write less — which allows for writing more slowly, more neatly, more legibly, with more time to think carefully, choose carefully and plan carefully. I’ve made resolutions to improve handwriting each time, each to no avail — perhaps this time will change? As for planning time, after all, I -do- have luxury of time. Better to use the time planning a clear structure than rewriting (which I have for the past three english unseens) and rambling on later on when I have too much time and am bored. Already I take half an hour to plan though.

With that, I pray (like all Christian students spike in around exam time) and go sleep.

And like all countries tell their army, “Gott mit uns”. The Germans lost WW2 because they were pagan. Even USSR reallowed religion. and Italy doesn’t exactly count >< (These radical charismatics -_-) how then do you explain the Atheist communists triumphing over the methodist Chiang Kai-Shek?

In a semi-politically incorrect manner, maybe it’s a possibility God isn’t for everyone. Everyone prays, not everyone gets results. The poor and starving pray too. What is the logical explanation? An allocated portion of the universe is fated to go to hell. Judas didn’t choose to be Judas since someone had to do the dirty work. Nor did Goliath choose to be born as Goliath. Sucks to be born as one of the races that the Hebrews had to exterminate.

All I know is — I pray (and even when I don’t — I’m still looked after). It is a private and personal thing after all. Hence I say, God — with me. For the religious who do frown upon me, John was specially known as the disciple whom Jesus loved… yeah, in the book he wrote.

As for anyone/all else, I don’t give a flop.

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Too tired to elaborate further. Need sleep. no energy, no time.